Feeling Lucky and Grateful

This will be a short update, just to close the loop after I posted about my anxiety for the higher dose chemo. I’m four days past the treatment, and the side effects have been much less than they could have been. I’m struggling with fatigue, dehydration, dizziness and an upset stomach, but no nausea or fever. I have some aching in my bones from a shot to stimulate my immune system, but it’s not that bad (and ibuprofen seems to help). It’s work again to keep my calories up but I’ll get there.

Most important: I’m on the other side of it now, and have no reason to fear or even dread the next treatment. I’ve still got a long way to go in recovery–both physically and mentally–but it feels good to have one worry relieved. One more chemo treatment February 18, and then I can focus on healing.

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